days of a new spell for an old ceremony/3

yesterday was hallucinatey all day, sick all day, sleepy all day, shadows out of the corners of the eyes all day, and the first card reading of the year at night and the streets came alive again on the way home and i felt a hollowness inside my head that was expanding in all directions and it didn't feel like the usual empty hollowness it was hallowed and it felt like something was starting to crawl out from the edges of the lake and it was coming in our direction and i was connected to everyone i knew and it was a good feeling to be connected because i forget how much i love you all and wish we could see each other more often and that life was not so short and this all seems so very very important and something is on the verge of urgent but not yet urgent not urgent enough that i know what it is yet