Monday, May 23, 2011

more twitch

so here's a little outline of what i'm working on next...
this twitch project...
there are three stories that run simultaneously...
in one, marie is in paris with a very pretentious older man named krystow, who is entirely fake, living a metaphorical life, and they are making a love affair that looks like a black and white movie, with stevedores and all the accoutrements of love (we need a big budget for complicated machines), and they are in the process of trying to learn how to live in the realm of the wolf, when there's no sun, but they can't stay there because daylight comes and the glitter is worn off when they drive the motorcycle too fast between buildings. (this is how she is seen thru his eyes)
in another, marie is in the french part of a country where there are french people, with a man named cruller, who is a rock star, and they become wolf when they are on heroin, but most of the time the heroin is too diluted, so the transformation is only by half, and the other half is so dimly lit that it can barely make a coherent sentence in the light of the sun. (this is how she is seen thru his eyes)
in the last, marie is in a somnabulent world, inner vision, where she is always also her other lover, an impossible realm of pure wolf, where she is always hallucinating, and always wolf, and always making love to herself (this is how she is seen thru her own eyes)
so...well, there's more to it, but the basic idea is that, and looking at how and who to be these roles...i started with the idea that one woman plays marie in all her versions, and different men play the menroles, but now it seems like it might be much more interesting to have 4 performers play marie, and one person (me) play the men...so that her role is made more multiplicitous (need a better and more pretentious word but that will do, oh, yes, that will do...) by multiple faces...two performers playing her for the last section could be f-f and probably better if that is so than any other combination...same actor playing both is ok too, ideal would be identical twins who have the same surreal affect but oh good luck with that...
try to avoid here making krystow stupid and ridiculous, and making cruller the same, it's not that she is too smart or interesting for them, she is as smart and interesting as she needs to be, but they should be decent enough to earn her respect, so i need to avoid the usual tropes of the cool girl with the nothing guy. they are all a little stupid at times, and they are also often brilliant...fortunately this is not about me, neither stupid nor brilliant, just terribly sleepy and wondering how i will cast this.  i am open to suggestions.
the twitch is always a reference to repetition, in themes, moments in time, and in lovers, when there is a repetition that does not perfectly rewrite the previous version (and there is no perfect re-iteration), then there is a twitch, in image-music-text...
outside court this morning, my ma and brother both talked about their own twitching limbs, and how for them it's cyclical...for me, it's become constant, and i'm running out of medicine, and ready to go for the herbs...men who drink more than 6 cups of coffee a day lower their risk of cancer, so i can't cut that back, are you nuts, what are you fucking nuts, but i don't think that adds to my twitching because, well, because i'm insane (but not borracho y loco, solo loco, un loco puto), and a hypocrite (despite having taken and failed the hypocratic oath), and much more prone to seeing rain on these sunny days, missing the chance to stay indoors under the covers on the rainy days and nights that are passed, that is to say, crying bob crying crying, or lately more just sad, and able to stare for hours at my scuffed boot and not mind time passing.  emotional telegraphy.  telepathy makes me crazy.  i like the drawing breath part of this.  the worst part is when i think i see a glimpse of how the whole thing might work, but then it disappears and all i know is what i want and that seems to be at odds with geography so much that i'm making new work and wondering how things can change long before my breath catches up to them, and hoping this means i'm wrong about where i think i am and what i think i am today.  oh, but hello gemini, and goodbye taurus, you were a nasty fucker this year.

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